HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!!!

the best birthday ever in my life ♥

went to work as usual...but is a good day for me..keep wondering what surprise baby will give me ..hehe...after work went buy 4d..but that auntie pissed me off.. =.= super rude also.but nv spoilt my day.. after tat quickly went home and prepare myself ..as wanna meet baby asap.. lalala.. baby pick me up at my house area and went to marina square... in sms i only know he says bringing me for buffet..mm.. when reach then i know that he bringing me to mandarin oriental for buffet..WOW!! he always surprise me with things i never think of de..notti boi...but im so happy...enjoy the dinner alot..and baby surprise me with the cake as well..omg.so many surprises...simply love him so muchh.... next mth his bday liao..going to surprise him too..=p but dunno how..sians.

♥ simply jovin ♥

is such a bad day for me..sigh

tot for tis week i could be happy.cos xmas week plus my bday week.guess i totally ruin it myself.

today at work got one uncle say im so fat.thats so hurt lor plus angry ..feel like slappin that uncle.stupid...then got another man.more worse.sit down there dunno doing wad. miss the number for so long still so attitude..asked for his pub card..then scold me..wth. BAD DAY!!!!!!! then baby till now still ignoring me.sigh.dunno how also.havin such a bad flu also.throat so pain now.arghhh...sucks to the max lor..so tired.think going cook maggie mee for dinner.think goin to sleep early too as well.SIGH!!! stupid me.ruin everything....

♥ simply jovin ♥

sigh.. always do mistakes. never for once i did it rite.

>today make baby angry again.SUPER SIANS!!!

tot i could jus happily go buy a dress for my bday to surprise him.ended up i did it wrong.

and the dress i bought .i think its not that nice .sigh..now he kind of ignoring me.arghh.. jus few more days away.tot i will be happy.but its not.dunno wad i should do.hai.hope tml he will wont be tat angry le ba... sorry baby. i shouldn talk to u in that manner. jus wanna surprise u.and u are really important to me.stupid me...always make u angry.=[

♥ simply jovin ♥

happy weekends!! ^^

meet up with my lovely baby for both of the day.lalalala...
today went back salon ask why my hair like tis.end up redo abit also like no use.toopid..but nvm.meet up with baby.. went T3 for his revision..so cute hor..hehe..had hong kong cafe for dinner.then went coffee bean to study...so sad.bring lappy end up cant connect to the wireless..mm..then went slackin session after that again.. love it so muchh.. that the moment we really happy and enjoy. how i wish everyday can just be like tis ^^ time to sleep.another week goin to start. hope next week got more days to meet up with baby. another week my BDAY le...baby say he already have plan le.but dun wan tell me.HUMPH...
yesterday after work went home change and went do reborning at my house there.but its a regrets. wont visit that salon again. not that straight lo.nvm.cut also not even.wth. but nvm.baby came to look for me.thanks little sis to pei me for so many hr over there =) after send little sis home.went united square with baby.as he wanna do revision for his upcomin exam...so ate mac for dinner.hehe... i so bo liao..haha..do some cute things..lalala...then went slacking session after his revision...enjoy every moment..haha..home sweet home after that

♥ simply jovin ♥

omg. today overslept.end up didnt go work.sians.dunno if the staff there will say behind my back ant.im like a problematic person.=[ woke up in the afternoon. bathe and meet up with baby.pass him the present my bro gf bought for him for thanks him for the lunch at sakae sushi.hehe. marina south pier for lunch.a bad choice i made.T_T sea sick..wanna go riverboat for lunch.but i have tis motion sickness..end up have to takeaway ..hehe..but still enjoyed the lunch with baby..hehe..1st time we ride in the rain.omg.super super wet..haha... overall.. awesome day. but feel guilty that i didnt go workT_T have to sleep early...have to eat medicine again.headache+ stomachache.ARGH!!! kill me ba.. 2more hr to our anniversary.hehe..
LAOGONG!! HAPPY ANNIVERSAY.MUACKS!!! ^^

♥ simply jovin ♥

been like a month since i last update my poor blog..
today make my baby angry T_T my fault sia...im sorry!!
but after all, baby still dote me alot. always give me surprises. monday came to wait for me end work,then bring me go turf city eat steamboat. so happy^^ eat till full full lo.. somemore some cant finish..haha..then hide here and there. then went gaint sales walk walk.and both of us so funny. keep smell this and that..end up both bought the same lotion..lalala..happy to the max... then went slackin session b4 he send me home..
thursday went ttsh for appt.then baby told me he not coming.so i went down with mandy and wei lin.while im waitin for my number to be called by the doc.baby suddenly called me..haha.ask me where i am etc..haha..then when i turn my head i saw baby.omg.so touched.^^ after appt. went square 2 for lunch at sakae sushi. baby treats. thanks my dear.love u so much..
few days ago talked to baby in msn.and we talked about all the funny things we did before..haha..like we fall down together at new home there..wahaha....lucky nobody see it.=p love to spend the day at beach with baby.nice slackin session.though have to set the the tent abit ma fan.but baby dont mind it.just set up everything himself..hehe..simply love him so much. though quarrel alot.but i really hope i will change my temper abit so baby wont be so upset.=[
bad bad me!!!

♥ simply jovin ♥

been awhile since i last blog. tis period of time theres so much things happening . Good and bad... But unhappy stuff is much more then happy moment. Recently just got a temp job. Glad that they extend me till next yr so I won't be slackin till new year. Dunno for what reason baby ignoring me for 3 days liao.... maybe is cause he thinks that I listen to my friend more then him... But I dunno what's the real reason behind it.. Its kind of upset. Tml is our anniversary le.. Should be happy but I'm not. Feel so uneasy. can't reach him at all . Arghh... Why always before our anniversary sure quarrel de... Sometimes his words is so hurtful . Dunno what I should do. The more I wanna treasure it the more I feel he is gettin further from me... at times I will compare myself to lots of things that only will make myself upset. So tired of relationship . Why mine will never success no matter how much I tried or am I fated to be a failure for my relationship . Sigh....
Few days ago... Bro find me to discuss something. And baby is the 1st one I wanna share with. But sadly. Can't reach him at all....guess its gonna be a bad week for me...

sometimes wonder izzit worth doing so much things? am i really that selfish? had a agurement with baby. sigh. feel so upset. no matter how much i try to change its still the same.my past is always there.ex always in the topic. he never satisfied with. always unhappy about my stuff always upset about my past. sometimes i will rather he leave me, at least he wont be so upset like now.though i will be very sad.but i dont wanna see him like now,always thinks alot and cant feel that he is happy anymore. i know he is very tired.just wanna meet him and lend him on shoulder to rest on.wanna sayang him.end up he ask me to spare a thought for him.sigh. suppose to be happily do present so i can give him in time on our anniversary next sat. but now i totally no mood to continue. just like wad my sister and ling say. why do so much where by its just half yr. i know why they says so.cause its just unofficially half yr relationship. am i very stupid? knowing that it wont be the outcome i want and im just stupidly cling on . maybe he is right. so early go book for what. also dunno if that day really will go there for dinner. i know my past matters alot to him.scars on my hand matters alot either.if time could simply turned back, how i wish i can erase everything .or maybe i could get killed in that accident. so i wont meet him and i wont bring misery to him. see him like tis im not happy at all.feel so guilty. few months already. he nv happy again. im such a failure. nothing goes my way. am i going to loss him soon?

♥ simply jovin ♥

what a wednesday for me.

dont like it at all.

dunno why always like tis.one day can be so happy next day unhappy again

not a nice lantern festival tis yr.bro and gf went oversea.cousins love busy.sians.

cant get to see my baby either. super upset with my baby today.

miss his ftt.yet dun wanna tell me what the reason.sometimes i so pissed. what also dun wanna tell me.end up what i also dunno.today he so weird.keep tel me what last time last time.sense that there going to be someth bad happening soon. sigh. UPSET!!!!!!

today keep headache.stupid.end up i become liar again.HAI!! tml have to wake up go down ah ma house.cos got renovation goin on.hope to see my baby asap tml .haha. going to secretly buy tian qi fen for him.ask him buy for so many days yet he ignore.going to bite him.think tml goin house opp and get it for him. thats all for the day ba.awaiting for oct to arrive.^^

♥ simply jovin ♥

today the most happy day for me..hehe...

my 1st jb trip with baby. happy to the max.

baby pick me up at my place here and park his bike at central there and we took train to kranji. hehe.. 1st thing we reach there is to go eat the curry fish head.ji yummy lor...hehe... then went city square walk walk.then decided to watch movie.haha..watch piranha at 3pm.hehe...damn er xin lor..gross..haha.after movie wanna go take neo print de.but its kind of ex then in here..so walk around then dunno wad to do so went watch another movie at 550.a thai movie.not so nice .but overall still arlight. ^^ after that went eat our dinner and headed home after that. abit unhappy.cos i wanna buy the case but baby always say not nice de words. sigh.and i nv change money.so nvm. dun wan everyth use baby money. 1st time baby took off the ring for so long.damn damn sad=[ but nvm.... baby send me home after that.. ^^ havin headache now.going to rest soon.*yawn*

♥ simply jovin ♥

a bad sunday for me.

happily mode go meet baby.end up both black face.

sometimes i really dont know what u want from me.

in ur phone my name is just yan jun. and u control me so much.

i just accept it. i dunno who am i really to u. im starting to tired of all these quarrel. why cant we just be happy just for once. why everyday we have to quarrel over the same old thing. i already decided what i should do . just u wait and see. so upset today. always asking myself.how much do i really know about u.how much do i know if u are really serious with me. having alot of doubts. friends givin me advice but i just choose u. i choose tis path.and i wont regret. i know there wont be a day that i will have any status. didnt asked much anymore.dun even dare to ask too. im totally imperfect. im not ur the gal that u want.dun understand why u will be with me. i dont have the looks nor figure. im just a problematic person. havin a very terrible past which u cant accept at all. WHY? i really no idea.am i being too silly? history going to repeat again? simply hate myself so much. if u never be with me . u wont be so upset and tired now. u will be very happy. my appear make ur life change so much. everything seems so wrong. maybe i should hide from everyone so i wont hurt anyone again. especially the one i love. shall disappear soon. pardon me if i do so. hate to hurt the one i love so much. regrets alot. if tis time really dont works well.seriously im going to put a big full stop.

♥ simply jovin ♥

didnt blog for weeks again.

so lazy lor...got so much things happened recently..

work for so long 1st time being sacked.omg.thanks to that big boobs auntie.argh!! bites.

in future work mus careful of this type of ppl.will cause ppl to death de. =[

things never work out well for me and baby.. sigh. i really dont know what i should do. sometimes explain more mistakes more.sigh.now baby ignore me. sians.that goes my sat. sister all ignore me also.say im liar..haii.... BORED!!! shouldn wake up at all.maybe i sleep wake up maybe tml liao. =[

♥ simply jovin ♥

SUPER BAD MOOD!!!!

hardly can get to see him tis month.hopping our wed meeting can be a wonderful day.end up is i hope too muchh.. only can spend half day togther.sigh.so diappointed!!! or am i too selfish? feel so upset!! already dont know what he actually thinking.wonders alot. the more i wonder the more i feel uneasy. i just want a simply normal relationship.dont know why everytime ending is this mess. am i not tat good? or i dont deserve any love from anyone? sigh. think im gonna sleep soon!!!

♥ simply jovin ♥

after so many days finally meet up with my sweet baby. hugs

suppose to meet up with ling and alex too for dinner, but ling too tired le..so postphone de dinner..if know early then wont go prata house liao... though to grab someth light.so dinner can eat with ling and alex...=[ but nvm...fine with me..^^ can spend time with my baby enough for me le...went defu lane after that..as baby wanna sell his sp... headed to yacht club after that..but kind of lost our way there..lol...reached there around 830 plus..then went house pub for drinkin session. sigh..should be a nice and wonderful night de..but i dun really enjoy it cos saw baby de so call EX gf over there..sigh..spoil mood...make me so emo. and make me think alot..his ex got the figure..lookin also not bad..compare to me is so big different.sigh..really no idea why baby will like me...haii.... home around 3 like tis.

been wanting to loss wt.success once.but end up failed again.

this time round im going to be very strict to myself liao.

till dec i muz loss back to last yr de me. sigh...

gonna be very strict on my diet as well...as next week onwards will be busy workin..no time for exercise.so have to be strict on wad i eat.if not sure failed again de.. have to jia you. though baby say he nv xian qi me..but i know everyone also wish the other partner will be nice figure etc de... and baby also not tat fat lor..but me...SIGH!!! time to do something about it. wish me luck!!!

♥ simply jovin ♥

心情很不好，想好多事。

好想哭。如果时间能倒流，希望可以停在我那愚蠢的时候，让一切都从来。

可能我的出现是错的吧。如果没出现，你就不会整天都闷闷不乐，整天想这么多。

不管我做任何事你都不开心的，每当我问你的过去你都只是在敷衍，从来不跟我说。

“在一起” 要五个月了。还是一样，没改变。叫你老公你却要我叫你杰，一直跟我说你不要我了，可能你只是跟我开玩笑， 但你这番话让我好伤心。不知道哪一次你是认真的。每当你跟我吵架我都好讨厌自己，责怪自己为什么一直惹你生气。如果乖乖听的话，什么事都每有了。

还以为明天可以见到你，果然。。 失望很大。 心里很不好受，好不容易等到明天，你却说你做工。好想快点找到工作就不用每天这么伤心了。不想在笑了，根本就不开心为什么还要带着面具。 开始累了， 不想笑了。 好想永远都在睡觉。心好痛！！ 越想得到的往往都不会得到，都不会属于自己的，只能看着它慢慢的离我而去。

心痛

*我走了，也许我们在一起是错的。

一起这么久了，你有在乎过我吗*

你的脸贴在我胸口
泪水早已渗透了我的衣袖
你我都沉默了许久
不该说的话你终于说出口

拥抱过后你转身就走
我笑着说再见心却在颤抖
我已没有勇气问你
离开的理由

想说声爱你已很久
可我从来都没有
以前我对你不够好
我也很难受

*只怪自己当初没有抓紧你的手
失去了你我才知道你有多重要
现在说后悔也没有用
心虽然很痛
只怪自己当初没有将爱说出口
现在想说声爱你已找不到借口
失去你以后
我连呼吸也好难受*

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如果不小心伤害了你
你不要太伤心
因为我真的不是故意
让你受委屈

既然相爱了那么久
不能就这样分手
因为我们的爱来之不易
我真的不想放弃

*baby so sorry
baby 别伤心
我依然爱着你想着你
别离去没有你的日子真的好空虚
baby 在一起
baby 别哭泣
我依然疼着你念着你
我的心永远属于你*

原谅我这一次
我真的,好想你
不管你离我多么遥远
我会一直等着你
ha...ha...
oh baby i know you still love me
come back my lover my lover
珊珊:我在等着你的爱

♥ simply jovin ♥

cant get to sleep.so came here to do some posting

been unhappy recently

having quarrel and argument with baby. not so happy. super hate the period we quarrel and having cold war. i know baby is trying to accept who im .i know its a very hard thing.sometimes feels that im so terrible and yet he give in to me.though sometimes i very dislike his thinking.but, when he care for me so much worries for me so much.i really feel that im such a failure. sigh.im glad that we share all those happy moment together.though i know i cant expect and hope much. but i really hope he belong to me totally. i dunno when tis day will come. or maybe it wont happen either.i know he very very unhappy. trying to act happy infront of me. even he never said anything.but i can sense it. really love him alot. so scared that one day he would leave me. i dun wish tat day to come. but i know it sure happen one day.tat one day when he explode . trying to improve myself.let go everything of my stupid past.stop talkin about the past.stop walking backwards.i really want to cherish and treasure him,but how long can i grab his heart. how long can i wait to the day we officially together ? or am i jus thinking wishfully ? i really no idea. starting to scared.scared that actually everything is just like a dream. sigh. time to sleep ba. tired le.having bad headache =[ love my baby so muchh.

♥ simply jovin ♥

went yishun aunt house.

helped her do her hp and com.till 11 plus then went off with little sis..took cab back home from amk.. nothing much today...

now i then know that actually this past few month u never been happy at all.maybe all the laughter and smile is jus so fake.jus acting infront me.

after the talk tat night.found that how actually im in ur eyes. and i knew the reason of WHY we not together. today im so sad after uu said that.what is there to be happy.

being to hate myself more and more each day.feels that im back to the past.back to the past of how i hate myself. im such a loser. and i know there wont be anyone that will accept my past. wont be anyone that will accept for who im. i wont be happy again!!!! back to my black world. a world thats got nothing. jus a space of blackness.a place for all my unhappiness stuff,for my tears. or maybe like what u put. maybe its a wrong to be together?

♥ simply jovin ♥

meet up with ling at bishan around 5 plus...^^

walked around and headed to st 22 coffee shop wait for baobao jie..as meetin him and alex for dinner together... always have to wait for alex...haha...

after dinner walked to the blk there slack till 10 plus and ling and alex went off...then me and baobao jie went my house there slack..as he bought liqord..hehe..so went to buy mixer then go drink..hehe..... went mac buy food and

walked home...

sigh...feels that baobao jie still very unhappy with me...dont know how...=[

* jun & jie*

*baobao jie help me take de...ji ugly my face =[ *♥ simply jovin ♥

suppose to be a nice monday night.

ended up a bad night for me.

shouldn have tag along with my sis out.

and she didn even tell me she meetin her fren lor..if not i wont tag along. i tot she only hangin around amk with the bf.sigh. reached home and being locked outside for sometimes.damn suay. kind of pissed.but cant blame others.only can blame myself. backside itchy.wan tag along. no more next time ever.swear!!!

having a bad headache now. dun feel like eatin medicine. think going sleep soon ba. thought i could meet him tml.but.he say not meeting me. always hope so much.end up is jus my wishful thinking. think im really very terrible..always make him angry. im really very selfish. he always go out late and im angry with him.but wad about me. i like nv think of his feeling either..sigh. i know he angry with me.but he jus dun wanna tell me.i know if he really wanna say someth.the words he say might hurt me.so he rather not to talk .sigh. hate my selfishness.

I HATE TAN YAN JUN!!!! SUCKS!!!!!!!!!

♥ simply jovin ♥

tired saturday for me.

woke up very early as cant really sleep.and need to go pray as today my grandmother dead anniversary in the meantime pray for 7th month also. stress day for me.so long didnt drive le.and today my bro say he got meeting and i have to drive my mum and sis to the memorial temple. OMG.. so nervous till stomach pain..wahaha....but tis pain last for few days le...today plus nervous..pain like hell. not really a smooth drive. almost accident again.stupid car...ARGH... went lunch with family aunt and cousin loves at same place. went home after tat.took a short nap while waiting for baobao to finish his 2a lesson.=D meet up with him.and we headed to macritchie as baobao jie wanted to use toilet.so funni ..then went balestier wanted to eat tau sa piah.end up didnt open..so went united square for ben & jerry.yummy yummy..=D love it. slack around at united square after that baobao jie bring me go seesha session..hehe..so sweet.our 1st session...and went marina south pier slack and went dinner and home sweet home.

dont know why everytime i have this feeling.baoabo jie will be unhappy when we about to go home de.i dont know why.dont know what he is thinking about.he wont tell me de.=[ today he told me that he really hate my past. T_T i dont know what to say and ans him.i hate my past too.but i just cant change it anymore.its already history. i really dunno what should i do baby.i hate to see uu like this.make me feel so guilty.sigh. think going to rest soon...gastric hurting me ....

♥ simply jovin ♥

not feeling so good tonite.

sigh..

sometimes i wonder who am i actually.

why everytime i ask something, u always ans me dunno dun wanna say. what u ask me i all also tell u...sigh. am i really not tat important? kind of upset actually.but going to pretend like nothing happen. dun wan another quarrel again. not sure when tis unknown will become known. or there wont even have tis word known at all. our mindset really kind of different. going to hide things again. will try to be a happy baoabo infront of him.=) hope we can overcome all the problems we having now. can we?

♥ simply jovin ♥

today be my baobao jie de guai baobao..stay at home.=p

wasnt a good day after all...

sigh....

simply hate it so much!!!!

dont know why they want to be like tis.take things without my permission. why mus uu people be like tis. just like a thief.really hate them so much. stop being so 迷信。really bad mood....argh....fuck it sia... keep ask me go with them to their friend there to 算命.wtf. stop acting infront of me as if there is nothing happened like tis. what should i do?

♥ simply jovin ♥

today did something wrong. T_T accidentally slap baobaojie face..and he ignore me...=[

not purposely de..is just my natural reaction. im so sorry baby. feel so guilty now cos he dun really talk to me...i know he is angry and upset..cos i slap him.but i dont mean it de...

sigh..think i having a very narrow heart... must change away this....if not sure alot more things will happen....hope tml i can get to meet up with baobao jie.. though is jus company and waiting.but for me is already enough.=)

♥ simply jovin ♥

today is the day that a story begin 4 month ago.

though its a complicated story.

but jun really treasure jie alot.

but things dont go smooth for us.

shouldn have ask him to go read my blog. end up he found my old blog. a blog i used when i started blogging since year 05. and after he read.he sound weird.and this is what he told me.

原来我一直都在以为，都在认为，原来我什么 都不是。

its so upset to hear this coming out from his mouth. and i didnt even think that he is nothing after all. i dunno why he wanna compare with my exs. i treat him as someone important and he tell me he is nothing after all. dont know what to do.today he wake up and he didnt even drop me a morning msg. and he talk to me in a cold tone. feel like crying . did i do something wrong again? today should be a happy day. but im not. feels that tears are going to roll down anytime. switch off my phone,sign out msn. dont feel like entertaining anyone today. sigh. totally no mood. argh. what should i do?? T_T

but still wanna tell jie :

happy 4 month together.

though we are in tis kind of relationship.im not tat happy cos of what we are in, but overall.i do treasure the day we spent.treasure the time we are together. enjoying everything that we did together,now im making an effort to change for a better life.

杰，你是君的唯一。

♥ simply jovin ♥

simply hate this shit family.

STOP TALKING ABOUT THAT DAMN SHIT ACCIDENT!!!!

stop nagging everyday( ITS DAMN FUCKING IRRITATING)

stop treating me like im a 3year old kid

stop telling me everything that happen in the news

stop telling me this and that what can or cannot do

stop using my aunt to control me

stop taking other people or other house gal come and say

stop calling me everyday to scold and nag

stop all this shit

kind of hate my family.no more freedom.12am? Cinderella? now is the 21st century . . for goodness sake. im live in this shit world for almost 22 year.and yet im still treat like a kid. why must because of this shit accident and treat me like this. now i know what i should and cannot do. not all my friends are bad friends. only that FUCKER!!! people parents dun restrict them.and yet my parents do so. be open minded sia...fuck. now i dun play wait till when? when im 80 or 90? dont take cousin side come say or whatever shit. now is the time i go out and see... stop putting me in that cage or yours.if u really wanna chase me out.by all mean.. for sure i got place to go.and wont depend on uu all.im really tired of this shit family.this cannot that cannot.

wan go holiday with friends,cannot.

go out late cannot.

having a bf cannot.

use com cannot

tell me: WHAT ELSE CAN??

is not say i cant take care of myself. ask me only can go with aunts.how long can i follow them.go with them is so damn boring.cant even enjoy at all. i dont know why have to treat me so different from my bro and sis. cos of tat ACCIDENT?

PLEASE LA.ITS ALREADY OVER FOR HOW MANY YEARS.STOP SAYING ALL THESE ALL OVER AND OVER AGAIN. IF IM DEAD.IZZIT UU ALL WILL THEN STOP SAYING?

IF SO. HOW I WISH I WILL BE GONE ON THAT DAY. LIKE TIS ALL OF U WILL SHUT UP AND STOP NAGGING.

dont always go complain to my aunt.ask her come control me.fuck it.

♥ simply jovin ♥

recently lots of things is happening on me.. actually not really happy....dont know what should i do either. making alot of mistakes.been thinking through whole day...sigh. friends is givin advice. dont know how long all these can last.dont how long im goin to stay in unknown zone. starting to think alot. alot of IF question.argh!!! dont really wan to blog too....sians.... sians of everything.family money. friends. HIM.=[

♥ simply jovin ♥

im really sorry about what i did. yes.im selfish.i didnt go think of how uu feel and i jus do it.i shouldn treat u in tis way.jus too scared to loss u.but now saying sorry is late for everything.sigh...very regrets for all the things i do.... hope that uu can forgive me soon..i miss uu so much...but i dun dare to do anything now.i know i make u very upset..im really sorry baby..sigh.dont know what to do rite now..feel like drinkin..feel like doing someth funny...argh!! feel like crying.... scared that u will leave me just like tis..sigh.... really hope to get ur forgiveness..

♥ simply jovin ♥

I hate :

when things don't go smooth
when things get clearer
When I know where my stand
When I'm just unknown
When I have to hide here and there
when nothing can be known
when I dont gain your trust
When everything seems like an excuses
When everything just a dream

when can I really wake up from this dream?
when is the time I can accept that fact that we are just nothing?

♥ simply jovin ♥

things don't go well for me. things happened almost everyday. but, today i really feel that im super upset heart pain.almost felt the same as that time. lost of way, lost of direction. are things going be the same again? am i doing the right thing? i really no idea.
today i feel so heart pain.cant breathe,feel like whacking or even cut my self again. realize a lots , having plenty of thoughts which i really cant figure it out. its hurtful to finds out the truth. and make me really lost of words. am i going back to that me again?
mind thinking a lot but just lost of words!! what is going on with me?
i don't know what his thinking. feels that he like hiding and dun wan me to know and i jus wanna dig everything out. knowing it would hurts but i jus want know. feels i know nothing about him. and quarrels is like very often nowdays. different thinking. am i really to loss again? am i? no idea. so what if i let go of HIM so what if i forget about HIM.im still remain unknown as usual.no idea when i will become known. i doubt there will be that day. i don't feel good. i don't like being unknown. tears rolling heart hurting.but nothing could be done.
tml onwards i think i know what should i do.

♥ simply jovin ♥

*wonderful Thursday* been a month didnt update liao..alot of things happened..=[ but overall still able to handle.. yst was a awesome nite..went clubbing with my sis and her fren...as a advance celebrattion for her bday.. wanted to open bottle..but quite ex so jia ling say go social house open....1st time there..not a bad place to chill out..=D drink till high and headed back to rebel..lalala...1st time club without JIE..so sad..keep kana bua..=[ stupid guys... reach home around 5 plus..=D finally i had my crab session today with JIE...meet him at novena and headed to changi v... nice nice..gonna bring my sisters there eat soon also..=p somethings make me unhappy..but dun wish to write here..hope things will turn better soon... ♥ simply jovin ♥

been thinking alot recently... feels that im back to who im again... hiding things to myself again.sometimes feels that everything is so fake.jus like a dream.dunno when tis dream will end.dunno what to say and dunno what should i do. dunno why things keep happening recently.recently mood not very good..been up and downs..cried show temper etc.. starting to suspect myself.. starting to suspect tis and that.start feeling unsecured. hate tis feeling...realise that everything is like very clear now..hints conversation etc. everything is like one sided stuffs..*why when what where how*..tis 4 y 1 h question been poping out lately.... start gettin tired of thinking and thinking.start hating tis life of mine. T_T


♥ simply jovin ♥

* great wed*

tot wont be meeting JIE today..as last nite he say confirm not meeting..end up msg ask me want meet ant..den i say anyth..den tell me he not free..=.= end up called and ask me go prepare myself ltr he come to fetch me...so went to prepared myself and meet him at usual place...den went marina square...=) den walked to suntec there...went buy food den went sit down and eat..haha...bough big bottle de meiji milk..lalalala...crazy us...slack awhile den went guardian buy lotion..as my rashes is killin me..=D den went arcade awhile..den went Marvelous cream..yummy..but lover didnt work..=D den walked to marina sands..omg..long journey.... slack there awhile....den walked back to take bike..cos goin bishan for dinner..hehe.... regrets to wear heels...painful sia...hehe..... headed home after dinner..=D msn with him as usual till 2 plus.... update soon

♥ simply jovin ♥

* great thursday nite*

meet up with JIE after his lesson..as usual...came to pick me up..=) today daddy bought each of us 2 egg tarts... den i bring out to share with him... so thoughtful of me... LMAO... den headed to old changi road for his lunch as he hungry...hahaa...den went leisure park walked walked... wanted to eat magnum gold ice cream..but so sad...cold storage dun have the stock i think? den saw ben and jerry...tempting..but end up bought 2 kit kat and 1 ice lemon tea...den went tiong rhu there slack awhile...den went back cold storage bought beers and went slacking till 12 plus..haha... den headed to geylang lor 27 for dim sum at hoe kee ... yummy yummy... then went opp for durian..haha...1st time eat at the stall itself...=D enjoyed myself...hehe... time with him always so fast...meet for 9 hr plus..but end up feel like only meet up few hrs only...wahaha...thanks JIE for everyth..hehe... super full now...OMG!!! going to sleep soon..wahaha... tired...enjoyed myself alot ...=D




♥ simply jovin ♥

* great wednesday*

meet up with JIE at town in de evenin time..hehe...wore de spect that he bought for me..yea...i knew he will wear it as well..lalala..went shoppin around....and headed back to amk..den took 72 to chomp chomp for dinner..hehe... today he didnt ride...so cant stay out too late..hehe..yummy dinner....sians sia..start to rain after we finish our food..and went dessert bowl for dessert..he say the place is quite romantic...hahaa...den walked me home.... =D waiting for him to be home..

* 130510: happy 24th bday to koon*

♥ simply jovin ♥

* awesome tueday*

went for grad day together at dover ite....after grad went down vivo..and we jio mr rashid and mr vincent go as well...and we left sch to take cab..and end up the 4 gals..me evon jia jie and gaya...haha...squeeze in mr vincent car...LOL...went walk walk while waitin for de guys..and headed to ben & jerry for ice cream...guys say teacher wanna treat..bt ps...so all of us paid for our own ice cream.. teachers left after ben & jerry..and de rest of us.. went search for wad to have for dinner while waitin for ashley hema and haida..=D tis is de 1st time we felt so embarrassing..ask de guys to go reserve 17 ppl seats at swensen...end up go tell de person 17 ppl..end up mic thinks de food too ex..over his budget...den all of us left...ji ps lor..end up went harbourfront for pizza hut ..LOL .... wonderful dinner...=D took so many photos....around 8 hundred plus..siao de we all...after that gaya evon jia jie and fazli went off..left aubrey wei liang jesmond michael zhi yan jason harray kelvin foo ming hema haida ashley and me..wanted to go st james de..end up didnt..wanted to go pub de..end up didn..and went seesha..LOL.... its so fun lo.... drink beer..ta with aubrey and wei liang..siao de we all.den foo ming open martell bottle..LOL..ended up few of us all seh seh..LOL... and i asked JIE to come pick me ..so nice of him... and thanks jesmond wei liang zhiyan and aubrey for company wait til JIE arrive...=D headed to garden mac rest and drink hot tea.as im too seh to go home..=D reach home around 2 plus goin 3..=D chattin with JIE now in msn..think goin slp soon..keep cough and cough..damn it...its not gettin better..waitin for camera and wei liang photos.. its damn so many photos lo..awesome awesome..

♥ simply jovin ♥

*awesome monday*

tot will meet JIE in de nite..but end up he say he meet me after his school..yeah..good good..rainin heavily sia...delay my time..went out ard 4 plus with sis to central as wanna get a top for tml grad..hehe....bought a top at this fashion..wow...at central saw so many ppl i knew...haha. saw joey sis as well..=D meet up with JIE around 630 like tis..company sis go wait for bus and went down ntuc buy water and sweet..and headed to cinema lvl..as watchin ip man 2 at 7pm..awesome movie sia.....solid solid de...=D after tat went new home there for dinner..and slack ..and went garden mac there de park walk walk..haha.... den went garden mac drink milo..and headed home..=D when goin to reached my floor..JIE suddenly gave me a plastic bag ask me reached home den see.... bought me a spect...ji happy...1st present from him..really surprised me... never thought he would buy for me..haha... chattin with him now in msn..gonna slp soon...hugs♥

the little present from JIE..same as what he have..=D
totall of 3 movie we have watched.
IP MAN 2.awesome

♥ simply jovin ♥

* thurs*

meet up with precious at yck mrt station at 1 plus..and headed to yishun polyclinic see doc..as she need to take mc for work..and im sick...omg...waited 2 hr plus to see a doc..wad the...waste of time...4 plus den finish seein doc..den headed to bishan for lunch at ajisen..as precious wanna eat..so company her eat as well...den walked around and she went down novena to meet her hubby..den i stay at bishan as JIE coming to pick me up and he wants to eat..=D and so coincidence ah pei is there as well..so she pei me till JIE come and we company her went wait for bus go home...and JIE say wanna eat pizza hut..lol..end up full house..LOL...and he gt no cash.only can use credit card..haha..den ask me so many dumb quesiton..and i say lend him money he keep dun wan..end up went new home there eat..haha..slack till 12 plus..den went home..den i say i wanna eat ice cream den he say i sick cannot..end up also bring me go...the best...horray...haha...but ate abit..de rest he finish..as im sick... home sweet home...=D


♥ simply jovin ♥

*awesome sunday*

JIE pick me up at my place around 1 plus...and headed to downtown as today is our wild wild wet outing..wooh....excited.... 1st water outing with him..=p the weather is damn hot sia..omg...=D exchange our free ticket voucher into tickets.. went changed and 1st is to the lazy pool..hehe...fun fun..2nd is the slide..the 4 storey high...hehe...stupid JIE...keep look at me..make me ps sia...see me shout de pattern...damn it...den headed to the ular-lah...was a fun outing at www....=D at there for 3 hours plus..after shower JIE say i become xiao hei..humph..headed to changi villiage for our dinner.. had bbq sting ray gang gong chicken wings..=D the crabs look yummy sia...planning for another day to go there for the crabs..hehe..as we didnt bring much money..the crab per kg $40 sia... went slack till 12 plus and he sent me home..on our way home..the stupid cte is doing road widening..jam like hell sia... just home around 130 plus...tired liao...same goes to JIE...awaiting for the next meet up with him...

♥ simply jovin ♥

* friday nite*

one of the best friday nite i ever had...an outing for me and JIE again...as tis outing is plan weeks before..=D meet up with JIE at clarke quay at 8 plus... went chinatown eat ...but the food sucks...regrets...headed to rebel to get chop and went to 7 eleven to get mixer for the vodka JIE bought from home... not really having a good mood..ended up drank quite alot... before entering de dance floor..went rebel and zirca see see..but no ppl dance yet..and the sound system make me CMI liao..so went out rest awhile..haha...and back to dance floor.. got ppl fight again..lOL....so funny.... reached home around 5 plus..and headed slp....*yawn* sat escape plan ruin...tml den go..bored sat i have...=[

♥ simply jovin ♥

*wed*

woke up in the afternoon...haha...as usual...=D went bathe at 2 plus goin 3..tot of goin out alone..as de nite b4..JIE say wont be meetin me... end up at 3 plus i receive his msg say he reach liao...=.= wad a sudden attack sia...so notti..so faster make up and prepare myself..and everytime meet him sure rain..LOL...so went down meet him...wearing my new heels..omg..painful sia.... den went my hse opp hawker..as he hungry..plus rainin cant go anywhere..haha..but lucky the rain stopped after he finished his food..went to withdraw money and went pay hp bills...walked back change as the heels killing me..haha...headed parklane for gaming session..L4D...the last time i went was with him...at home ground..but me and JIE went net worms ...cheap sia..a dollar per hr...played an hr..tot of goin parklane play pool..ended up the arcade closed down liao..become pub..=.= no choice...so went walked ard den went 瑞春 for dim sum..yummy yummy..den i give a stupid idea...and went desker rd to see ah gua..LOL....manage to see ..all CMI...haha..den i give another stupid idea...and headed geylang to see chicken..wahaha..not much to see..as today alot of police there..mmm.. den walked walked..den went in sex shop to see see look look..wahaha..1st time there sia..haha....looked weird.. tot of goin garden mac for ice cream de..den he forget abt it..den reach my place..den i say ..so sad..no ice cream today..den he was like..oh ya..faster lets go..den i say i jus kiddin de...den he say faster faster...and there we go garden mac for ice cream again.on the way there my eyes turn red.think hand dirty..saw lester over there..haha..home sweet home after ice cream session.. friday coming...happy happy..wooh... blehs...

♥ simply jovin ♥

* lovely tuesday*

woke up at 8am tis morning..as goin down to cc&p to return shirt and collect pay...went out together with parents as dad going to drive me there..=D after that went dim sum with my parents at geylang...yummy yummy.... headed to bugis...went temple to pray and went og..hehe..bought a heels..=) awaiting for my pay and goin to get another pair of flats or sandals...=D went fetch sis frm sch and headed home...online awhile and went for my nap...bored nite...JIE went out dunno wad time den he will be home.... hope tml can meet him ba..if not think meetin joey sis for shopping..see how it goes...think drink too much water..bloated..omg!!! finally tis few day i can take back my stuff... awaiting for fri and sat to arrive..muacksss

♥ simply jovin ♥

*wonderful wed nite*

meet up with JIE at house mac there.. as company joey sis to see doc..=D den she pei me till JIE come..so nice of joey sis...after that went leisure park for our lunch..haha....den walked around..and went to east coast slack...nice weather to slack..=D den went geylang grandlink square for pool session..hehe...1st pool session with JIE... and headed to pongol yacht club..hehe...nice rounding around..and a romantic place at there club..hehe...find a new place for drink..hehe..den went rounding around pongol area and went jalan kayu for supper...and headed garden mac for ice cream..yummy yummy..reached home at 2like tis...=) always nice outing with JIE...muacks

♥ simply jovin ♥

*updated post*

im so unhappy.unhappy of what happened today!!! didnt manage to work.argument with parents.
sigh.sometimes feels that im just stand on a one sided love. everyone already step out of the shell...how come im the only one who cant do it? trying to be happy and moves on.but i just cant!! so failure rite. today realize that actually im just nobody at all!!! maybe i shouldn fall in so much and hope for something. joey sis is rite.i should pull back abit..or i should pull de hand brake. if not i will be hurt once more. feelings never been the same.and i cant find that feeling again. i dunno what i should do! just dun wan to wake up frm the dream.once im awake.everything will be gone.but how long can i stay in this dream? thing will change.a person feeling will change as well. but mine feeling? no matter how many relationship im been in.how much i put in.end up its jus nothing.its jus hurts. am i going to have tis feeling again? im tired,really tired. hope my heart would jus stopped.

♥ simply jovin ♥

*tuesday*

gonna work ltr on at 530..SIAN!!! so long didnt work in f&b line le..hope everything will be smooth ba..lalala.....

yesterday another wonderful evening for me and niam ti ti..woohlala..tot im not goin to meet him..asked him to go bowlin with me or wan meet me..say dun wan...den end up i told him rainin liao...go home take muz careful..den he say omg...helmet wet liao..ltr hw i wear..haha..surprise me sia...nv tot he would bring extra helmet..hugs*1000♥..hehe...met him ard my area...heavy rain sia...when de rain get smaller..we walked to my hse area there for dinner...bt i didnt eat..as not hungry..after that went back take bike and headed to petrol station to buy oil for his bike...hehe..after that headed to new home again..lalala...garden mac after that...for my ice cream...hehe..home sweet home...den received his msg say he forget to give me eat the sushi he bought in sch..specially pack for me de..wahaha..so sweet rite? but he forget abt it..lol... meet him tml hopefully???haha...hope today faster end..so i could see him again tml...lalala...next fri clubbing nite with him...yeah!! awaiting to next fri...blehs..

♥ simply jovin ♥

*great nite*

gonna update my tue wed and today ..will be a long post.shall start on tue.

*150410*
woke up at 3pm plus..online and msg JIE...wow..he also sleep till quite late den wake up...tot he told me he meeting his fren.=.= chatted with him in msn and receive a call frm auntie joo asked me to go over her place see her lappy..as something went wrong...den she told me to go over at 5..so decided to talk to JIE in msn awhile more den go prepare myself...and he asked if i found anyone pei me go the information session ma..den i say nope..den he say jie will pei u go..haha...=D prepare myself and went up to auntie joo place....raining cats and dogs sia..omg..and JIE told me his place also same..so decide not to ride..take public transport...meet up with him at somerset at 6 plus and went to the location...ended quite fast.and we headed to newton circus for dinner...wad a day...gonna reach there my heels the strip went off...and totally cant walked..=.= so sad...after dinner took cab to JIE place there...den he went home take bike and slipper..=D headed to new home again... slack till 12 plus..and went garden mac for ice cream again..yummyy *1000....home sweet home...
*140410*
woohlalala...clubbing nite...ladies nite..afternoon met up with my nst buddies haida hema and asmah at lucky plaza for lunch..and i was late..as my sis suddenly said wanna tag along..so late..=D as usual...our lunch hangout..=D went bugis after that as hema and asmah wanna buy clothes..as they going in poly..so they wan buy more clothes..hehe...after that asmah went home and the rest of us went starbucks slack till 830pm...had a great chat with them...li jun fren came to look for him..and goodbyes to my 2 darlings..and me sis and her fren went down ..meet up with JIE and went check if rebel wad time open..and went liang courts for mac...as the fren wanna eat..the 3 of us ate ice cream..mm...i think garden mac ice cream is better..=) hehe..after that went 7-11 buy 2 big glurp ..as JIE took vodka frm home..and he put in a mineral water bottle...have to buy mixer..so buy 2 big glurp.one orange and sprite..haha..and we both also mix with vodka..and dumb JIE went pour so much into the orange..damn strong sia..OMG!! after that went rebel to get the chop 1st and headed to the riverside there to finish de vodka...managed to finish de orange..me and JIE start to have the kick liao..and we went meet in...awhile ltr pei qi came.really enjoyed alot..especially with JIE..=D club till 4 plus...and everyone went home..but me JIE my sis and the fren went my hse mac there for breakfast..as im hungry..hehe....and JIE company me and sis walked home..so sweet har..lalala....

*130410*

gonna meet JIE after his orientation.sigh..was a raining day..and we went both stuck ..im stuck at home.and he stuck in his sch..lol...when he reach my place to pick me up..he was wet sia..den slack awhile while waitin for the rain to get smaller...and we headed to leisure park katong for movie.dinner at pastamania.walked around and went for our movie..1st time movie at leisure park..=) watched fire of conscience...the sound system ..power sia...=D home sweet home after that i guess? lol..

♥ simply jovin ♥

* wonderful nite again*

joey picked up at me at my place and headed to wisma..as she wanted to repair her lappy...silly gal..... did someth and the whole c drive crashed..lol..poor lappy ..have to be in icu for few days...went food republic for dinner...and went walk awhile..and i went down ps to meet JIE and joey went to work.... watched rec2 with JIE...i think part 1 is nicer lor..=) after that he went home to take his bike..and i went taxi stand wait for him...wad a fuck up car..horned at me while im crossin de damn road..and is green man..bloody hell....gave me a big shocked.... after that went bishan to have supper and went new house again..wth..gt so many xiao qiang..and they fly sia..omg..scary..so change another new house...more worst..kana kiss by insects...=[ went garden mac for ice cream again and home sweet home...=D


♥ simply jovin ♥

* WONDERFUL SUN NITE*

just home awhile ago...
mornin went shao mu with family..kana bites sia..painful...and tired...reached home around 1300..bathe and zz....sleep til 1940 den wake up..msg JIE as usual..=D and meet up with him.
another great nite for me as well as JIE. meet up with him around 10 plus goin 11...as usual..headed to bishan area for his dinner...and headed cheers to buy drinks and beer and went to our new home slack.kinda spoilt.as tat day kana screening...den today seems kinda different..=) everytime meet him time sure pass very very de fast...mm...around 3am..den went garden mac for ice cream..yummy yummy..and headed home after that..whee whee...

sometimes things i dun wish to know jus happened let me know by it means...speechless...some poeple just think they are very clever in doing things...but in fact..is just like wtf. cant stand all these people. life got all these people is jus like creating problem to myself... hope tml will be another great day..=D time to chat with in msn with JIE...

♥ simply jovin ♥

SATURDAY!!!

another great friday nite for me and JIE again...=D was home around 3 plus....went to meet JIE again after he came back frm jb...picked me up at my hse around with his bike and went makan at bishan area and went to our new house...bt got a grp of guys sittin there..so we went sit at another blk while waitin for them to leave..and i gave a stupid idea of goin there and sit down and hint them....so we really did that..and awhile ltr the grp of ppl left..wahaha..yea yea.... tio screenin sia...wad the..dunno izzit ppl complain us or what...but nvm la..screen den screen..den awhile we went off to my house area...wait for my sis den went home....after that me and sis went mac for breakfast..4am in the mornin..wahaha...crazy us....jus woke up not long..tired..today not meetin JIE le..he goin club ba....maybe tml or next week.... today guai guai stayed at home...if nt ltr ppl goin to nag again..hehe... time to wash up and find things to do liao..haha...

♥ simply jovin ♥

THURSDAY!!!

jus woke up not long ago...tired plus sleepy...5 plus den reached home ...mm...wonderful wed nite again...=D went st james with joey... walked around and went power house..and stay there awhile...as gt free drinks...after that went boiler room..as she always there de..so stayed there..after not long my sis came and looked for me together with the bf...after that went back power house as wanted to finish de free drinks coupons..end up was very long q over there..den went back...joey drop us at house mac..and follow sis and the bf go s11 eat while waitin for JIE ...went mac after that to wait for him..lol..saw him wear his spect..so cute sia..=p after eatin went back to the playground slack...sit in his sp...so funni sia..stand all spoilt de..lousy...humph.... slack till 5 plus and headed home..=D dunno ltr if goin to meet him again..mmm...he in jb now... IM SO TIRED!!!!!

♥ simply jovin ♥

MY WEDNESDAY!!!

tired sia....yesterday went meet up with joey and went to pick her two kids and went central as wanted to buy workin pants...what a waste..end up the pants button sucks...argh!!!! jalan jalan awhile and joey went hm with her kids and i went meet up with JIE at central as well...and went kfc for dinner... after that he went put coupon on his bike and walked to bishan slack...as he only gt one helmet..so no choice have to walk..walk to st 22 slack 1st..walk till there both of us become niam ti ti..wahaha....keep making fun...both of us crazy liao...keep play and play with the fitness stuffs...damn fun..after that went st 24 de playground..tat one best...can ride horse..=p after tat both of us lie down at the playground there..as its under de block..not tat dark..=D had so much laugh and laughter..=) slack till 3 plus den he pei me walked home...so nice of uu..=) think he will be more niam ti ti den me..lalala.... ltr goin work liao..SIANS!!!!!!

♥ simply jovin ♥

MY MONDAY!!!

had a wonderful weekends...was havin class chalet over the weekends... its a success chalet.without u guys there wont be tis chalet.thanks Michael for treating the 6 of us at new york new york and thanks for all the sutffs uu spent on the chalet.

woke up early as meetin classmates at bedok to buy bbq stuffs....after that headed to chalet....put everyth and headed for lunch..had new york new york for lunch and mic treats..thanks man...the chalet didnt spend a single cent sia..whaha....3am decided to went out as a grp..went to red hse... after that went to the swan or someth de..on the way there saw david and his gf..=.= so spoil..wanted to called him..bt with my one whole grp of fren..so i jus walked off.... dun wanna them to ask much...the path is so dark.and we went to a place and sat in a circle..and we all went quiet..out of a sudden...few of us heard slipper sound..like someone walk towards us...damn scary..and ashley keep asked to go back..so we went back...scared like hell man...after tat i msg him wanted to hint him...and didn expect tat tis msg i was being scold when im home and check my fb...sigh..decide to post here..as its my blog..and im really unhappy abt it.... chalet photo is so much tat i dun wanna post here..check it out in my fb..
wanna talk abt tis post... 1st...when u dunno anyth just keep your mouth shut. its the conversation bewteen me and him.so what if u are his gf.. dun use that to threaten me.. 2nd. i no need to flirt with him. and why should i hide between my frens.. theres nothing to hide frm uu guys.as i didnt did anyth wrong. jus happen tat we walked past each other. and i dun seems theres a reason to call uu as well...call and ask abt my things? pls ..for sure dun have de..so no point to ask. and things i lend de...now i want take back is the rite things to do.i thick skin? dunno anyth jolly well shut up.uu all didn owe me?? pls..he did owe me my things.
and im really disappointed with u... so to u im shameless and im a bitch? thanks ar.. i jus want all this to end asap. jus feel like im an idiot. she treats u good ok lor..means all this while im treatin uu like shit lor..never mind de.....enough liao...just want my stuffs back and tats it.


♥ simply jovin ♥

MY TUESDAY!!!

suppose to be a great tuesday , but turned out to be a sad plus angry day..

went out in the afternoon to bishan pizza hut for lunch with sisters loves..so sad...couldnt had wad i usual want..as sold out..=[ so no choice...have to choose another one...not nice de...think next time have to stick to amk ha ha... headed to hse mac there for ice cream..nightmare started..omg... suppose to meet chris after his work de....meantime went slack with sister...and after tat meet up with alex together as he meetin his fren for prawnin session..den went pool b4 tat... had a small quarrel with him..hope tml will be fine...=[ alot of unhappy thing happened..drop my hp jus now..damn angry...argh!!!! results will be out ltr at 0800..nervous sia...mmm....

♥ simply jovin ♥

MY WEEK!!!!

tis few days didnt update..as very tired......

last nite went dlb o with sis her fren alex and alex fren..omg...the world is damn fucking small...one of de fren bf is david fren justin..which i saw b4 in bus when im with david...no wonder find him so familiar... and he and the gf dunno says wad..keep starin at me..not a good nite..sigh.... ppl says im light blub etc...hais.... thanks kenny to be there for me... at least i wont feel so weird... and thanks for sending me hm too..reach home ard 5 plus..slept for 2 hr..wake up and went bai bai for qing ming ...after that went lunch with family and went clementi meet with wilfred and went party world...mmm... goin to zz soon..ha ha....

tis few days been clubbing...omg..really back to my oldself....sigh...
wonder if uu really still care for me or what?

♥ simply jovin ♥

MY MONDAY!!!!

woke up at 15oo..haha..power...=p went out with sis to meet jia ling at bishan..had dinner at ajisen..after tat headed to bishan clinic as jia ling down with cough..while waitin...lijun fren alex came to look for us and after tat headed to amk k pool... mm...prawning after that at sim ming..but without jialing..wad a bored nite...as dunno alex well..and his fren as well..so dun really keen to prawn with them...felt being left out..told lijun tat im goin hm 1st..and walked home frm there...as no bus liao..dun wan to waste money on cab..so walked home...around 45 mins walked...=) jus finish talkin on phone with wilfred.. going sleep soon...*yawn*
*is there really true love?*

♥ simply jovin ♥

MY SUNDAY!!!

didnt update for days...=D had a great nite yst....hehe..was out the whole entire day... afternoon went out with sis to bishan for lunch before meeing mark.......lalalala..thank god i didnt get to see him last nite..the world is jus so small...and my guess is just so right.... was home tis mornin around 11 plus goin 12.... slept around 1400...woke up in the evenin time..wa...back of my shoulder and thigh pain pain wor..sob sob.... sigh..wan go toilet bt nth come out...wad the....=p another week goin to end again.....dunno wad will happen tml...haha.... tats it ba..nth much to update le











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