Sunday, June 12, 2011
Saturday, May 14, 2011
been quite a long time since i last post. dont really feel like doing it. not happy at all. none of the things work well for me.work relationship. everything is going down the slope.
cos of my stomach problem going to loss my job.
i dont know why no matter what i do end up sure quarrel. im really really tired. why cant my relationship be just smooth... why so many problems. i know he changed alot. i dun even know what im to him anymore. so many things running in my mind. i know im not that perfect, bad past. he will never be happy, even happy guess only for that few hr? now cant even have a proper conversations. talk awhile jiu quarrel liao..bro ROm ..they ask me wan invite him.i so wish to invite.but after a thought i jus ans him not going to invite. like what he say,he not that type who invite he will go, and i know he wont want to see my family. already 1 yr plus le.things still the change.am i going to make a decision? or what? i really no idea. i never had something like this,make me so xin ku . how i wish things could turn back. and i sure wont make so many stupid mistake. pls start all over from 13 yr old again!!!
♥ simply jovin ♥
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
2 days never meet up with my baby le..
and yup...meet up with him..in fact ..now im with him..hehe...baby tml got exam.so we came to ridout mac for his revision and im usin my lappy. baby look sick today=[ guess he down with flu...
mm....time like pass so fast.next week is the day we together for 11mth le..yeah..goin 1yr liao..mm..if i still cant get a job.i dun have the money to buy baby anniversary present le..and in my mind i already know what to get for him le..yesterday went down taka to pass my working time sheet.and happened to see that...a perfect gift for him^.^ hope my baby will like it...
update again!! PEK CHEK!!!!!!!!!!
♥ simply jovin ♥
Thursday, February 24, 2011
WHAT A BAD DAY!!! SIGH..MY DAY IS TOTALLY SPOILT BY U!!! FUCK UP!!
DAMN HATE EVERYTHING THAT IS HAPPENING RIGHT NOW...
NONE OF THE THINGS IS GOING THE RIGHT WAY..WTF WTF WTF!!!! BAD MOOD JIU SCREW EVERYONE UPSIDE DOWN.. DAMN IT!!! SAY TILL LIKE WE ARE BORN TO BE NO GOOD...MIGHT AS WELL DUN BORN ALL OF US OUT BETTER...EVERYDAY SCOLD SCOLD NOT..U ALL NOT TIRED IM SUPER TIRED OK..KEEP COMPARE WITH OTHER PPL CHILD..AND UU LA HOR...STUPID..ALL OF U.. WE GOT SCREW FOR NOTHING...
SUPER BAD MOOD NOW..GOING OUT LIAO!!
TO BE CONTINUED...
Monday, February 7, 2011
IM JUST A TROUBLEMAKER!!!!
not for once i did anything right..
cny still quarrel with him..sucks rite!! i know.. and tis time round for sure he gonna to ignore me for weeks or even month.i already prepared for that.i deserved it!! if only i had a chance to turn back the time.i wish all these wont be happening in the 1st place. sometimes i feels that he dont really understand my feeling and thoughts. our mindset is totally way too far... or we are coming to an end? tis few days im carryin a fake mask with me everywhere i go. just tryin to hide my saddness. why cant i do anything right? for years....im still the same. he is right. from the start i never change at all. till now im still a troublemaker. he deserve a better gal compare to me..all this period of times. what actually did i do to make him happy ? i think none? even if i do that something.turn out to be an unhappy day as well. full of thoughts!! im just a piece of shit!! if ever i could choose.i rather to be gone forever or vanish in this entire world..so i wont make ppl around me so miserable and worry for me. SIGH!!!
♥ simply jovin ♥
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
after so many things had happened.today then i realized that indeed everything had changed and im the one who let everything turned this way.no matter what i tell u now.he wont bother.and for once he told me before. when he started to bother means things is not that smooth anymore. sigh. im such a failure.never for once did a right thing to make him happy.always make him angry and upset.even now i tell him im goin sing with my friends he will think that im goin drink? now he tell me things i ans with an answer he will think im just sayin for the sake of saying. last nite tell him that i wanna go try apply for courses in poly see i can get in ma.and he says up to me.i wan do what i do. so...now no matter what i going to do he not going to bother anymore.sigh...dunno what to do. trying so hard to change myself. controlling my anger control try not to scold all those unpleasant words.. no matter how much he says even im angry i just keep it to myself.and today i scold him F it. just cannot agree to his words.and i jus sign out from msn.ARGHHH..... now i think back.maybe the arrangement i made for his bday he wont be that happy too. though its not that expensive dinner.but i guess... none of the things i do he will be happy.just like what he says did i ever do anything he wil be happy? no i guess...
lots lots of thoughts.
9 mth together liao. status still remain the same. til now he never for once put our photo. and i know. only in the middle of nite then he will ride me go wait at his blk area.if not in the day time he will just let me wait at other side..which i really hate it.. maybe its my own probem thats why he will do this. till now im still remain as unknown. bad tuesday!!!! going to bathe and goin poly open house..after going to do other stuffs...FUCK UP DAY!!!
♥ simply jovin ♥
Thursday, December 23, 2010
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!!!
the best birthday ever in my life ♥
went to work as usual...but is a good day for me..keep wondering what surprise baby will give me ..hehe...after work went buy 4d..but that auntie pissed me off.. =.= super rude also.but nv spoilt my day.. after tat quickly went home and prepare myself ..as wanna meet baby asap.. lalala.. baby pick me up at my house area and went to marina square... in sms i only know he says bringing me for buffet..mm.. when reach then i know that he bringing me to mandarin oriental for buffet..WOW!! he always surprise me with things i never think of de..notti boi...but im so happy...enjoy the dinner alot..and baby surprise me with the cake as well..omg.so many surprises...simply love him so muchh.... next mth his bday liao..going to surprise him too..=p but dunno how..sians.
♥ simply jovin ♥
Monday, December 20, 2010
is such a bad day for me..sigh
tot for tis week i could be happy.cos xmas week plus my bday week.guess i totally ruin it myself.
today at work got one uncle say im so fat.thats so hurt lor plus angry ..feel like slappin that uncle.stupid...then got another man.more worse.sit down there dunno doing wad. miss the number for so long still so attitude..asked for his pub card..then scold me..wth. BAD DAY!!!!!!! then baby till now still ignoring me.sigh.dunno how also.havin such a bad flu also.throat so pain now.arghhh...sucks to the max lor..so tired.think going cook maggie mee for dinner.think goin to sleep early too as well.SIGH!!! stupid me.ruin everything....
♥ simply jovin ♥
Sunday, December 19, 2010
sigh.. always do mistakes. never for once i did it rite.
>today make baby angry again.SUPER SIANS!!!
tot i could jus happily go buy a dress for my bday to surprise him.ended up i did it wrong.
and the dress i bought .i think its not that nice .sigh..now he kind of ignoring me.arghh.. jus few more days away.tot i will be happy.but its not.dunno wad i should do.hai.hope tml he will wont be tat angry le ba... sorry baby. i shouldn talk to u in that manner. jus wanna surprise u.and u are really important to me.stupid me...always make u angry.=[
♥ simply jovin ♥
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