cant get to sleep.so came here to do some posting

been unhappy recently

having quarrel and argument with baby. not so happy. super hate the period we quarrel and having cold war. i know baby is trying to accept who im .i know its a very hard thing.sometimes feels that im so terrible and yet he give in to me.though sometimes i very dislike his thinking.but, when he care for me so much worries for me so much.i really feel that im such a failure. sigh.im glad that we share all those happy moment together.though i know i cant expect and hope much. but i really hope he belong to me totally. i dunno when tis day will come. or maybe it wont happen either.i know he very very unhappy. trying to act happy infront of me. even he never said anything.but i can sense it. really love him alot. so scared that one day he would leave me. i dun wish tat day to come. but i know it sure happen one day.tat one day when he explode . trying to improve myself.let go everything of my stupid past.stop talkin about the past.stop walking backwards.i really want to cherish and treasure him,but how long can i grab his heart. how long can i wait to the day we officially together ? or am i jus thinking wishfully ? i really no idea. starting to scared.scared that actually everything is just like a dream. sigh. time to sleep ba. tired le.having bad headache =[ love my baby so muchh.

♥ simply jovin ♥