sometimes wonder izzit worth doing so much things? am i really that selfish? had a agurement with baby. sigh. feel so upset. no matter how much i try to change its still the same.my past is always there.ex always in the topic. he never satisfied with. always unhappy about my stuff always upset about my past. sometimes i will rather he leave me, at least he wont be so upset like now.though i will be very sad.but i dont wanna see him like now,always thinks alot and cant feel that he is happy anymore. i know he is very tired.just wanna meet him and lend him on shoulder to rest on.wanna sayang him.end up he ask me to spare a thought for him.sigh. suppose to be happily do present so i can give him in time on our anniversary next sat. but now i totally no mood to continue. just like wad my sister and ling say. why do so much where by its just half yr. i know why they says so.cause its just unofficially half yr relationship. am i very stupid? knowing that it wont be the outcome i want and im just stupidly cling on . maybe he is right. so early go book for what. also dunno if that day really will go there for dinner. i know my past matters alot to him.scars on my hand matters alot either.if time could simply turned back, how i wish i can erase everything .or maybe i could get killed in that accident. so i wont meet him and i wont bring misery to him. see him like tis im not happy at all.feel so guilty. few months already. he nv happy again. im such a failure. nothing goes my way. am i going to loss him soon?

♥ simply jovin ♥