happy weekends!! ^^

meet up with my lovely baby for both of the day.lalalala...
today went back salon ask why my hair like tis.end up redo abit also like no use.toopid..but nvm.meet up with baby.. went T3 for his revision..so cute hor..hehe..had hong kong cafe for dinner.then went coffee bean to study...so sad.bring lappy end up cant connect to the wireless..mm..then went slackin session after that again.. love it so muchh.. that the moment we really happy and enjoy. how i wish everyday can just be like tis ^^ time to sleep.another week goin to start. hope next week got more days to meet up with baby. another week my BDAY le...baby say he already have plan le.but dun wan tell me.HUMPH...
yesterday after work went home change and went do reborning at my house there.but its a regrets. wont visit that salon again. not that straight lo.nvm.cut also not even.wth. but nvm.baby came to look for me.thanks little sis to pei me for so many hr over there =) after send little sis home.went united square with baby.as he wanna do revision for his upcomin exam...so ate mac for dinner.hehe... i so bo liao..haha..do some cute things..lalala...then went slacking session after his revision...enjoy every moment..haha..home sweet home after that

♥ simply jovin ♥

omg. today overslept.end up didnt go work.sians.dunno if the staff there will say behind my back ant.im like a problematic person.=[ woke up in the afternoon. bathe and meet up with baby.pass him the present my bro gf bought for him for thanks him for the lunch at sakae sushi.hehe. marina south pier for lunch.a bad choice i made.T_T sea sick..wanna go riverboat for lunch.but i have tis motion sickness..end up have to takeaway ..hehe..but still enjoyed the lunch with baby..hehe..1st time we ride in the rain.omg.super super wet..haha... overall.. awesome day. but feel guilty that i didnt go workT_T have to sleep early...have to eat medicine again.headache+ stomachache.ARGH!!! kill me ba.. 2more hr to our anniversary.hehe..
LAOGONG!! HAPPY ANNIVERSAY.MUACKS!!! ^^

♥ simply jovin ♥

been like a month since i last update my poor blog..
today make my baby angry T_T my fault sia...im sorry!!
but after all, baby still dote me alot. always give me surprises. monday came to wait for me end work,then bring me go turf city eat steamboat. so happy^^ eat till full full lo.. somemore some cant finish..haha..then hide here and there. then went gaint sales walk walk.and both of us so funny. keep smell this and that..end up both bought the same lotion..lalala..happy to the max... then went slackin session b4 he send me home..
thursday went ttsh for appt.then baby told me he not coming.so i went down with mandy and wei lin.while im waitin for my number to be called by the doc.baby suddenly called me..haha.ask me where i am etc..haha..then when i turn my head i saw baby.omg.so touched.^^ after appt. went square 2 for lunch at sakae sushi. baby treats. thanks my dear.love u so much..
few days ago talked to baby in msn.and we talked about all the funny things we did before..haha..like we fall down together at new home there..wahaha....lucky nobody see it.=p love to spend the day at beach with baby.nice slackin session.though have to set the the tent abit ma fan.but baby dont mind it.just set up everything himself..hehe..simply love him so much. though quarrel alot.but i really hope i will change my temper abit so baby wont be so upset.=[
bad bad me!!!

♥ simply jovin ♥

been awhile since i last blog. tis period of time theres so much things happening . Good and bad... But unhappy stuff is much more then happy moment. Recently just got a temp job. Glad that they extend me till next yr so I won't be slackin till new year. Dunno for what reason baby ignoring me for 3 days liao.... maybe is cause he thinks that I listen to my friend more then him... But I dunno what's the real reason behind it.. Its kind of upset. Tml is our anniversary le.. Should be happy but I'm not. Feel so uneasy. can't reach him at all . Arghh... Why always before our anniversary sure quarrel de... Sometimes his words is so hurtful . Dunno what I should do. The more I wanna treasure it the more I feel he is gettin further from me... at times I will compare myself to lots of things that only will make myself upset. So tired of relationship . Why mine will never success no matter how much I tried or am I fated to be a failure for my relationship . Sigh....
Few days ago... Bro find me to discuss something. And baby is the 1st one I wanna share with. But sadly. Can't reach him at all....guess its gonna be a bad week for me...

sometimes wonder izzit worth doing so much things? am i really that selfish? had a agurement with baby. sigh. feel so upset. no matter how much i try to change its still the same.my past is always there.ex always in the topic. he never satisfied with. always unhappy about my stuff always upset about my past. sometimes i will rather he leave me, at least he wont be so upset like now.though i will be very sad.but i dont wanna see him like now,always thinks alot and cant feel that he is happy anymore. i know he is very tired.just wanna meet him and lend him on shoulder to rest on.wanna sayang him.end up he ask me to spare a thought for him.sigh. suppose to be happily do present so i can give him in time on our anniversary next sat. but now i totally no mood to continue. just like wad my sister and ling say. why do so much where by its just half yr. i know why they says so.cause its just unofficially half yr relationship. am i very stupid? knowing that it wont be the outcome i want and im just stupidly cling on . maybe he is right. so early go book for what. also dunno if that day really will go there for dinner. i know my past matters alot to him.scars on my hand matters alot either.if time could simply turned back, how i wish i can erase everything .or maybe i could get killed in that accident. so i wont meet him and i wont bring misery to him. see him like tis im not happy at all.feel so guilty. few months already. he nv happy again. im such a failure. nothing goes my way. am i going to loss him soon?

♥ simply jovin ♥

what a wednesday for me.

dont like it at all.

dunno why always like tis.one day can be so happy next day unhappy again

not a nice lantern festival tis yr.bro and gf went oversea.cousins love busy.sians.

cant get to see my baby either. super upset with my baby today.

miss his ftt.yet dun wanna tell me what the reason.sometimes i so pissed. what also dun wanna tell me.end up what i also dunno.today he so weird.keep tel me what last time last time.sense that there going to be someth bad happening soon. sigh. UPSET!!!!!!

today keep headache.stupid.end up i become liar again.HAI!! tml have to wake up go down ah ma house.cos got renovation goin on.hope to see my baby asap tml .haha. going to secretly buy tian qi fen for him.ask him buy for so many days yet he ignore.going to bite him.think tml goin house opp and get it for him. thats all for the day ba.awaiting for oct to arrive.^^

♥ simply jovin ♥

today the most happy day for me..hehe...

my 1st jb trip with baby. happy to the max.

baby pick me up at my place here and park his bike at central there and we took train to kranji. hehe.. 1st thing we reach there is to go eat the curry fish head.ji yummy lor...hehe... then went city square walk walk.then decided to watch movie.haha..watch piranha at 3pm.hehe...damn er xin lor..gross..haha.after movie wanna go take neo print de.but its kind of ex then in here..so walk around then dunno wad to do so went watch another movie at 550.a thai movie.not so nice .but overall still arlight. ^^ after that went eat our dinner and headed home after that. abit unhappy.cos i wanna buy the case but baby always say not nice de words. sigh.and i nv change money.so nvm. dun wan everyth use baby money. 1st time baby took off the ring for so long.damn damn sad=[ but nvm.... baby send me home after that.. ^^ havin headache now.going to rest soon.*yawn*

♥ simply jovin ♥

a bad sunday for me.

happily mode go meet baby.end up both black face.

sometimes i really dont know what u want from me.

in ur phone my name is just yan jun. and u control me so much.

i just accept it. i dunno who am i really to u. im starting to tired of all these quarrel. why cant we just be happy just for once. why everyday we have to quarrel over the same old thing. i already decided what i should do . just u wait and see. so upset today. always asking myself.how much do i really know about u.how much do i know if u are really serious with me. having alot of doubts. friends givin me advice but i just choose u. i choose tis path.and i wont regret. i know there wont be a day that i will have any status. didnt asked much anymore.dun even dare to ask too. im totally imperfect. im not ur the gal that u want.dun understand why u will be with me. i dont have the looks nor figure. im just a problematic person. havin a very terrible past which u cant accept at all. WHY? i really no idea.am i being too silly? history going to repeat again? simply hate myself so much. if u never be with me . u wont be so upset and tired now. u will be very happy. my appear make ur life change so much. everything seems so wrong. maybe i should hide from everyone so i wont hurt anyone again. especially the one i love. shall disappear soon. pardon me if i do so. hate to hurt the one i love so much. regrets alot. if tis time really dont works well.seriously im going to put a big full stop.

♥ simply jovin ♥

didnt blog for weeks again.

so lazy lor...got so much things happened recently..

work for so long 1st time being sacked.omg.thanks to that big boobs auntie.argh!! bites.

in future work mus careful of this type of ppl.will cause ppl to death de. =[

things never work out well for me and baby.. sigh. i really dont know what i should do. sometimes explain more mistakes more.sigh.now baby ignore me. sians.that goes my sat. sister all ignore me also.say im liar..haii.... BORED!!! shouldn wake up at all.maybe i sleep wake up maybe tml liao. =[

♥ simply jovin ♥

SUPER BAD MOOD!!!!

hardly can get to see him tis month.hopping our wed meeting can be a wonderful day.end up is i hope too muchh.. only can spend half day togther.sigh.so diappointed!!! or am i too selfish? feel so upset!! already dont know what he actually thinking.wonders alot. the more i wonder the more i feel uneasy. i just want a simply normal relationship.dont know why everytime ending is this mess. am i not tat good? or i dont deserve any love from anyone? sigh. think im gonna sleep soon!!!

♥ simply jovin ♥