im really sorry about what i did. yes.im selfish.i didnt go think of how uu feel and i jus do it.i shouldn treat u in tis way.jus too scared to loss u.but now saying sorry is late for everything.sigh...very regrets for all the things i do.... hope that uu can forgive me soon..i miss uu so much...but i dun dare to do anything now.i know i make u very upset..im really sorry baby..sigh.dont know what to do rite now..feel like drinkin..feel like doing someth funny...argh!! feel like crying.... scared that u will leave me just like tis..sigh.... really hope to get ur forgiveness..

♥ simply jovin ♥

I hate :

when things don't go smooth
when things get clearer
When I know where my stand
When I'm just unknown
When I have to hide here and there
when nothing can be known
when I dont gain your trust
When everything seems like an excuses
When everything just a dream

when can I really wake up from this dream?
when is the time I can accept that fact that we are just nothing?

♥ simply jovin ♥

things don't go well for me. things happened almost everyday. but, today i really feel that im super upset heart pain.almost felt the same as that time. lost of way, lost of direction. are things going be the same again? am i doing the right thing? i really no idea.
today i feel so heart pain.cant breathe,feel like whacking or even cut my self again. realize a lots , having plenty of thoughts which i really cant figure it out. its hurtful to finds out the truth. and make me really lost of words. am i going back to that me again?
mind thinking a lot but just lost of words!! what is going on with me?
i don't know what his thinking. feels that he like hiding and dun wan me to know and i jus wanna dig everything out. knowing it would hurts but i jus want know. feels i know nothing about him. and quarrels is like very often nowdays. different thinking. am i really to loss again? am i? no idea. so what if i let go of HIM so what if i forget about HIM.im still remain unknown as usual.no idea when i will become known. i doubt there will be that day. i don't feel good. i don't like being unknown. tears rolling heart hurting.but nothing could be done.
tml onwards i think i know what should i do.

♥ simply jovin ♥

*wonderful Thursday* been a month didnt update liao..alot of things happened..=[ but overall still able to handle.. yst was a awesome nite..went clubbing with my sis and her fren...as a advance celebrattion for her bday.. wanted to open bottle..but quite ex so jia ling say go social house open....1st time there..not a bad place to chill out..=D drink till high and headed back to rebel..lalala...1st time club without JIE..so sad..keep kana bua..=[ stupid guys... reach home around 5 plus..=D finally i had my crab session today with JIE...meet him at novena and headed to changi v... nice nice..gonna bring my sisters there eat soon also..=p somethings make me unhappy..but dun wish to write here..hope things will turn better soon... ♥ simply jovin ♥